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- ಪ್ರಸನ್ನ ಎಸ್ ವಿ
I saw her when I was in 5th standard. It was afternoon. she was partcipating in the long jump compitation. She was very cute! of my age only. The compitation was held in the playground common to my kannada medium school and her english medium school. I saw her for the 1st time there. Her PT master was trying hard to make her win in that game.And I remember the stress on her face and the hard work she had put to win the game. I started observing her since then.She was placed in my mind from the second I saw her. As my native is a small place, I got many occasions where she coincidently appeared in front of me.
I joined to english medium for high school and i think it was in my fate, she was also put into the same section where i was. I always had her presence in those 3 yrs at school, at play ground etc etc. May be in those 3 years. I started admiring her and use to get some kind of feelings on her.
But, during that stage my 1st preference was "study" & then the other things.So I just concentrated on studies, not on anything else. In those 3 years, I had observed the people who fought for her, who tried to propose to her, even without the knowledge of her. I use to think that why people are disturbing this girl, Why can't they stop troubling her.
After the high school, we joined to different colleges. I thought I missed her.But not!!.She also joined to the same tuition where I had joined. From 5th to 12th standard... I watched her silently, and without informing to my mind, my Heart started working and fell in love with her.She is the inspiration I started writing poems. After all my heart is small you know... and It can't withstand all those heavy weighted feelings. So it made me to write poems, having her in my mind and heart.
We joined to different engineering colleges. I spent 4 years of my engineering life with just the feelings on her which were silently accumulating in my heart. I loved her in those 4 years.. without her presence. I missed her a lot. Sometimes I felt my love was weak. Because it couldn't speak in front of her. And sometimes I felt my love is strong eventhough itz one-way. Because in all those years my feelings on her didn't go weak.Rather it became strong.
One day somehow got to know that she has started liking someone. I knew I don't have any right to control her heart. I wished I shouldn't have expressed my feelings to her. First of all, my mind and heart had lost their strength with many worst things happened in my personal life in those 4 yrs and on top of this, love failure. I really stopped thinking. My mind started taking control over my heart and made it hard. Final year was gud to me i guess. Got selected in campus interview, placed in a software company.
After my engineering, I started killing whatever the love feelings which had accumulated in the heart by keeping myself in work.I started avoiding the remembrance of her. I don't know whether it should be called as my luck or bad luck, one day I saw her in my office!. Huh.... why all these tests??. I couldn't take it anymore. My wounded heart was healing well and then her presence. When the things which we like or love most is not for us and if it is present in front of us, it creates lot of pain. I started experiencing that pain.
In that period of 14 years,I never spoke with her and that day in the company, I talked with her for the 1st time in my life. But, it wasn't a gud start of conversation. In the begining itslef, when I introduced myself to her, she told she doesn't remember much. Hmm... does anybody needs anything more than this??!!
I couldn't keep all this pain within me. It was burning my heart.I wanted to be free from this.
So a thought came to my mind that why can't I let her know that I loved her truely. I knew the bitter truth that I don't have the chance to ask for her love.Also I knew that some other lucky person has got her love. But, I just wanted to come out of all these feelings. So wrote a mail to her. Told her the entire story which I had kept with me for 14 years. I wished her Happy valentine's day. That day was Feb 14th. I dint expect anything from her. After that, I felt free and got the feel that I'm not associated with anybody's heart.
End of the story! I know most of us would have gone through this phase of life...
As many say Love is "part" of life, not "the life" itself!
My life is moving on now... :)
Ex-Devdas,
Prasanna SV
I joined to english medium for high school and i think it was in my fate, she was also put into the same section where i was. I always had her presence in those 3 yrs at school, at play ground etc etc. May be in those 3 years. I started admiring her and use to get some kind of feelings on her.
But, during that stage my 1st preference was "study" & then the other things.So I just concentrated on studies, not on anything else. In those 3 years, I had observed the people who fought for her, who tried to propose to her, even without the knowledge of her. I use to think that why people are disturbing this girl, Why can't they stop troubling her.
After the high school, we joined to different colleges. I thought I missed her.But not!!.She also joined to the same tuition where I had joined. From 5th to 12th standard... I watched her silently, and without informing to my mind, my Heart started working and fell in love with her.She is the inspiration I started writing poems. After all my heart is small you know... and It can't withstand all those heavy weighted feelings. So it made me to write poems, having her in my mind and heart.
We joined to different engineering colleges. I spent 4 years of my engineering life with just the feelings on her which were silently accumulating in my heart. I loved her in those 4 years.. without her presence. I missed her a lot. Sometimes I felt my love was weak. Because it couldn't speak in front of her. And sometimes I felt my love is strong eventhough itz one-way. Because in all those years my feelings on her didn't go weak.Rather it became strong.
One day somehow got to know that she has started liking someone. I knew I don't have any right to control her heart. I wished I shouldn't have expressed my feelings to her. First of all, my mind and heart had lost their strength with many worst things happened in my personal life in those 4 yrs and on top of this, love failure. I really stopped thinking. My mind started taking control over my heart and made it hard. Final year was gud to me i guess. Got selected in campus interview, placed in a software company.
After my engineering, I started killing whatever the love feelings which had accumulated in the heart by keeping myself in work.I started avoiding the remembrance of her. I don't know whether it should be called as my luck or bad luck, one day I saw her in my office!. Huh.... why all these tests??. I couldn't take it anymore. My wounded heart was healing well and then her presence. When the things which we like or love most is not for us and if it is present in front of us, it creates lot of pain. I started experiencing that pain.
In that period of 14 years,I never spoke with her and that day in the company, I talked with her for the 1st time in my life. But, it wasn't a gud start of conversation. In the begining itslef, when I introduced myself to her, she told she doesn't remember much. Hmm... does anybody needs anything more than this??!!
I couldn't keep all this pain within me. It was burning my heart.I wanted to be free from this.
So a thought came to my mind that why can't I let her know that I loved her truely. I knew the bitter truth that I don't have the chance to ask for her love.Also I knew that some other lucky person has got her love. But, I just wanted to come out of all these feelings. So wrote a mail to her. Told her the entire story which I had kept with me for 14 years. I wished her Happy valentine's day. That day was Feb 14th. I dint expect anything from her. After that, I felt free and got the feel that I'm not associated with anybody's heart.
End of the story! I know most of us would have gone through this phase of life...
As many say Love is "part" of life, not "the life" itself!
My life is moving on now... :)
Ex-Devdas,
Prasanna SV
